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Thought I'm good enough to be strong.
Thought I could do well.
Thought everything could be well all the time.
But I'm wrong.
Could not use my perspective to see things and want how the things happen to me.
Yes. It's somehow complicated.
And tired.

Wanna cry, but still keep tears back in the eyes.
To prevent swollen eyes actually, lol.
I don't know, maybe nothing much in the world could motivate me, anymore.
Conclusion, old already.

只想哭想哭想哭。
没地方给我发泄。就哭。
是我不感恩吗。
爸爸在天之灵会伤心吗。
还是我太压力，太压抑。
我当然想相信，一切都好。

Dope?

Okayy I promise I will do my work later. :X
Let's dope ! Lol. Learnt from ttdancers. Haha.
Dope dope dope. :3

Just cooked a simple dinner.
Omelette, mushroom with bak choy and prawn with 菜豆.
Of course it's vegetarian.
Hmph satisfied.

But still, mood never gone up.
Feel like I'm retarded.
In everything.
Practise for piano exam, Waiting for replies, Managing mood myself, Talking, Doing.
Yeap. Right. I got the realization.
So whutttt, who ever caresss?

As long as I don't get psycho. Then it's enough. Lol. "really?"

Work out something?
But there must be something stopping me from going on. Fine.

最近

发生了很多事。
心里也生病了。
想一次过写完所有事情和想法。
但算了吧。一言难尽。
苦，也是要接受吗？
生活会给你丢来很多苦难的球，我们应该学习的不是逃避它，而是接受它。
不管遍体鳞伤，也要活得漂亮？
我也希望我能做到啊。
对生活失去那股干劲，感觉，就这样吧，颓废也没关系。
可是很不甘心放弃，也很不甘心被剥夺自由。
生活就是如此，我能干什么呢。
只能尽量让它不那么可悲？
惨了，我连那份改变的心力，也没有了。