Yo :)

Hehheh :)
Busy life ! Everyday more than 15hours stayed in the college lol.
Although I have enjoyed the talentimenight section at night.
It's kinda happy and also sad, that next week is our performance already.
I will miss every moments in these 3 weeks.
And tried really hard to involve in everything, everyone.
In college, feel like I'm a different person lol. It's my trueself anyway.

Love you all. <3 NI9HTALIVE and TTnight mates. :) YEAHHHHH.
And, Happy Birthday, Daddy....

One week had gone

Wow, one week just went off. And there're many more to go.
Every weekdays have to go to school early and go back late.
So exhausted.
But somehow, I'm really not regretting of attending TalentimeNight although my timetable is so full. Every night have to stay there to practise.
When I play music or else in that event, I enjoy.
Don't feel like study after that hahaa.
The bandmates are also love music and quite friendly. Erm quite. Haha.
But still need some time to get involved more maybe.
Not only bandmates, also the talentime-mates, and my classmates. Lol.

Really hope my stress will fade out and healthy always.
And everything will be alright.
And hope 29th of May will be awesome ! NI9HTALIVE Rocksss !

Depression

Very sad and confused. and stressful.
Although depression won't change anything, but I just can't control it.
Hope everything will be alright...

尽力

也许我想得太复杂吧。
不过，总之还是要认清这世界，还有靠自己。
这个生活，到底，还是我自己来决定的。
唉。加油。

我真的在想。
活下去，有什么意义。
想了想，我现在活下去也只是因为生命还没结束，还有为了不让家人伤心而活。
活下去也只是一种责任。
我要什么生活，我的人生要做什么。
以前想过很多想做的事，现在真的提不起劲来。
要自己站起来，真的很痛苦，要坚强，真的很痛苦。
这叫坚强么？我也不知道。
一个人独自想着很多事情，伤心着，我也不知道为什么我会这样。
对自己好一点？我没有机会。
我不能只做自己喜欢做的事，不能只关心自己，不能只想着自己。
是啊，不断地妥协。

爸，你留下了这么多问题给我。
我要怎么接啊。。
真的很想念你。为什么。。

我也不想跟自己过不去。

选好自己的路，为了什么。
站在人生的十字路口，已经失去了目标。
而笑，现在只是一种表情。